why am i here??
I am a self acclaimed lucky, young girl living in the fastest city in India-Mumbai. I have the freedom to do anything I want, good parents, good education, friends, ..decent job, money..phones, laptop..and other little things that are supposed to make life easy.
And yet, I feel incomplete, insecure, restless, a peculiar combination of feeling overworked and underworked at the same time..oxford does not have a word for that as of now..or may people call it "confusion". And to add this, sometimes i dont feel anything at all..There is no sense of accomplishment..no pride..nothing that would make you feel top of the world.
everyday i sleep restlessly with the knowledge that the day that has just passed..was just another day of running here and there, completing(or at least pretending to complete) tasks assigned to you, arguments, misunderstandings..
So what am I supposed to do? was i born to do these things day after day and one fine day pass the baton to my offspring and die(peacefully???) what exactly is the purpose?
where is life headed to? better jobs, fatter packages, bigger homes, more and more clothes, eventually marriage and childern..? what is that one thing that can make me feel complete, what is that one thing, which, when i achieve, i will stop complaining..??
where do i let out my energy, my ideas, hear my heart beat and feel the pulse in the air??
why is that i feel i can do so many things at a time and yet i am bound to my chair morning to evening?
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ReplyDelete"writing"...
express yourself
unload your mind and heart.
speak all your thoughts to some one.
get silly...
oh man.. such meaningful questions... at this point .. you must reach out to yourself ..and ask what is it that means the most to you.. what are the things that you would like to accomplish and would be glad to say that you did if tomorrow you had no such chance... and then it's just a matter of taking the plunge... one at a time..
ReplyDeleteoh man.. such meaningful questions... at this point .. you must reach out to yourself ..and ask what is it that means the most to you.. what are the things that you would like to accomplish and would be glad to say that you did if tomorrow you had no such chance... and then it's just a matter of taking the plunge... one at a time..
ReplyDeleteSounds very philosophical to an average person :-).Its not very philosophical to me not because i am not an average person(I bet you would have tough time resolving all the nots to make some sense out of it) hahaha... jokes apart,It is because i used to think on similar lines and got answers to these questions partially.
ReplyDeleteSeems like there is an old head on your young shoulders.
You might ask how my questions got answered. After extensive reading, I understood that the key to happiness lies in the present moment- enjoying the present moment and showing gratitude towards all that you received in life till date. If you do not feel good about what you have, you would never feel good about what you would receive in the future.
I know its easier said than done.
Try doing something different. Make a difference to someone's life.Indulge in some hobby. Be silly at times. Smile at your friends or neighbours.Make them happy. Have someone in your life who can make you happy- Be it a life partner or a best friend.Its only these small things which make a big difference to your life.Then the void would disappear and your life starts making sense. Then you would realize what a wonderful gift of god life is.